When [A#]I look back, [Am]tracing fingertips over [A#]plastic bags
[Am]Thinking, "I wish I [F]could [Em]extrapolate some small [Am]intention
Or [Em]maybe just get your [Am]attention for a [F]minute or [G]two"
[A#]Will I die? Or will I get to that [Am]ten-year mark?
Where I b [A#]eat the extinction of [Am]telomeres?
And [Gm]if I do, will you be there with me, Father, [A7]Sister, Brother?
[A#]Charlie, stop smoking
Caroline, will you be [C]with me?
Will the baby be alright?
Will I [A#]have one of [C]mine?
Can I [A#]handle it even if I do?
It's said that [C]my mind
Is not fit, or so they said, to [A#]carry a child
[F]I guess I'll be [Dm]fine
It wasn't my [A#]idea, the cocktail of things that twists neurons in [Gm]side
But without them, I'd [C]die
They say there's irony in [A7]the music, it's a tragedy, [A#]I
See [Gm]nothing Greek [C]in it
Give me a mausoleum in Rhode
Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and [A7]Dave
Who hung himself real [A#]high
In the Natio [Gm]nal [C]Park sky, it's a shame and I'm crying right [C#dim]now
To [Dm]get to you, save you, if I take my [A7]life
Find your astral body, put it [C]into my [G#dim]eyes
Give you two seconds to [A#]cry
Take you home, [C]I, I'll give you a blanket
Your spirit can sit and watch [C#dim]TV by my [Dm]side
'Cause, baby, [G]I [C]
Ran through a time when I felt you were [A7]doing it
[A#]I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco
[A#]I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone
[C]I had to sing for the prince in two hours
[C]Sat in the shower
Gave myself two [A7]seconds to [Gm]cry
It's a [Gm]shame that we [C]die
When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a [F]drive-by
Pulled me up by my waist, long [A#]hair to the [F]beach side
I wanted [A#]to go out like you, swim with the fishes
That [F]he caught on Rhode Island beaches
But, sometimes, it's [Am]just [A#]not your time
Caro [C]line, what kind of mother was
she to say I'd end up in [A]institutions?
All [A#]I wanted to do was kiss Aaron [C]Greene and sit [F]by
The [Dm]lake, twisting [A#]lime into the drinks that [C]they made
Have a babe at sixteen, the town I was [A7]born in, and [A#]died
Aaron [Dm]ended up [C]dead and not me
What the f^ck's wrong in your head
to [F]send me away, never to come back?
Exotic [C]places and people don't take the place [A7]of being your [A#]child
I [A#m]give myself two seconds to [F]cry
Let it [Dm]crash over [C]me
Like the waves in the sea
Call me Aphrodi [A7]te [A#]
As they [C]bow down to me
[Gm]Sunbather, [A]moon chaser, [A#]queen of empa [C]thy
I give myself two [A7]seconds to [A#]breathe
And go back to being a serene [C]queen
I just needed two seconds to [A7]be [A#]me
