[C]Drownin' in the Blue Nile
He sent me "Downtown [F]Lights"
I hadn't heard it in a [C]while
My boredom's bone deep
This cage was once just [F]fine
Am I allowed to cry?
[C]I dream of crackin' locks
Throwin' my life to the [F]wolves or the ocean rocks
Crashin' into him [C]tonight, he's a paradox
I'm seeing visions
Am I [F]bad or mad or [G/F#]wise? [G]
What if he's [C]written "Mine"
on my upper [G]thigh only in my [Am]mind?
I'm slippin', fallin' [C]back into the hedge [G]maze
Oh, what a way to [Am]die
I keep recalling [F]things we never [G]did
Messy top lip [C]kiss, how I long for our [Am7]trips
Without ever [F]touchin' his skin
How can [G]I be guilty as sin? [C]
I keep these longings [F]locked
In lowеrcase inside a [C]vault
Someonе told me, "There's no such thing as bad [F]thoughts
Only your actions [C]talk"
These fatal [C]fantasies
Giving way to labored [F]breath takin' all of me
We've already done it in my [C]head, if it's make-believe
Why does it feel like a [F]vow we'll both uphold [G/F#]somehow? [G]
What if he's [C]written "Mine" on
my upper [G]thigh only in my mi[Am]nd?
I'm slippin', fallin' [C]back into the hedge [G]maze
Oh, what a way to d[Am]ie
My bed sheets are [F]ablaze
I screamed [G]his name
Building up like [C]waves crashing over my [Am]grave
Without ever [F]touchin' his skin
How can [G]I be guilty as sin? [C]
What if I [G]roll the stone away? [F]
They're gonna crucify me anyway [C]
What if the way you [G]hold me is actually what's [F]holy?
If long-suffering [F]propriety is what they [G]want from me
They don't [C]know how you've haunted me so [Am7]stunningly
I choose [F]you and me [G]religiously
What if he's written "Mine" on
my upper [G]thigh only in my [F]mind?
I'm slippin', fallin' [C]back into the hedge [G]maze
Oh, what a way to [Am]die
I keep recalling [F]things we never [G]did
Messy top lip [C]kiss, how I long for our [Am7]trips
Without ever [F]touchin' his skin
How can [G]I be guilty as sin? [C]
[G] He sent me "Downtown [Am]Lights" [C] [G]
I hadn't heard it in a [Am]while
Am I allowed to cry?
